“Inside everybody’s nose,” Gertie begins, cocks her brow, glances off to the side, then shuts her thin-lipped mouth. She looks at me.
I wait, lean in toward her a little. I wait some more. She has an odd smell like rancid caramel. And I wonder if the scent means that she’s sick. I suddenly feel like one of those animals that can smell illness in people. She still says nothing.
“Inside everybody’s nose what?” I finally ask her.
She gives me that world-weary sigh of hers. As though I really am nothing more than a disease-sniffing animal. Lord knows I’ve been called worse. “Inside everybody’s nose, there lives a sharp-toothed snail,” she finally says in a matter-of-fact way.
“Ah,” I nod in agreement. “Yes. I suppose that’s true.” No point in arguing it really. I turn back to my task at hand – which at the moment is washing Gertie’s dishes. She says she hates washing dishes. That it’s below her station. Whatever that means. I suspect she just plain doesn’t like washing dishes.
“Are we going to the store today?” Gertie suddenly yells as though I’m in the other room rather than just six feet from her. “George!?”
I turn to look at her. My hip hurts when I move my chin. It’s peculiar and I wonder what this condition might smell like to an animal. “Yes,” I say calmly. “As soon as I finish cleaning the dishes.” I could have added your dishes, but what’s the point really? I don’t so much mind washing her dishes. It calms me. And Gertie isn’t capable of gratitude anyhow. Not since the accident. (Though if I’m being honest, she wasn’t all that grateful before it.) I gently wipe down each piece of silverware with the drying towel and place them carefully into the drawer. I like the sound they make when they settle into one another. Like far flung friends brought back together.
“You don’t owe her anything,” both Ma and my sister Rose like to remind me. Usually when I’m heading out the door to come here to Gertie’s.
“She is my oldest friend,” I have to remind them; at which point Rose always rolls her eyes and says something like, “Some friend,” or “It’s not your fault, George.”
I know that it is though. My fault. Still, it’s not the only reason I keep coming back here.
“There was a boy in our town with long hair,” Gertie blurts out as I reach for the casserole dish from last night’s macaroni and cheese. “Did I tell you about him before? He was strange,” she tightens her face as though she’s just sipped vinegar. Then she smiles and stares past me out the window above the sink, her face softening. “Probably a queer,” she whispers the last word.
“I believe you’ve mentioned him before, yes.” I scrape off a particularly aggressive glob of cheese hanging on for dear life to the edge of the casserole dish. I don’t have the wherewithal to tell her once again that that boy was me and that she had once been my sergeant-at-arms. My ally. The keeper of my secret. She wouldn’t believe me anyhow.
“Done,” I say, shaking off the towel and folding it neatly over the cabinet door. “Are you ready to go to the store?”
“Well, it’s about time,” Gertie stands up from her seat and holds out her arm to link with mine. “Shall we stroll, darling?” I smile. She used to say that a lot. Back when. She giggles like a young girl and my heart jumps then sinks just a little when I recognize the spark in her eye. I take her arm in mine as we walk slowly toward the screen door. The floor creaks beneath our feet and Gertie suddenly stops short of the door and looks at me. “Are they gone?”
“Are who gone?”
“The people,” she speaks in a low tone, eyes wide open.
“The people?”
“The people!” she says more emphatically. “You know. The people!”
“I’m afraid I don’t.”
Again with the sigh. “The other day there on Hanover Street,” she points to the door. “Over by the church. I think that the traffic light simply would not turn green so the people stopped to wait. They must have been there for hours, George! Hours!”
“Oh, those people,” I nod, though I have no clue what she’s talking about. That doesn’t mean there weren’t people there though. She’s taught me that much. “Yeah. They’re gone. They all went home.”
She calms herself and leans her head against my arm. “Oh good. That’s good,” she sighs, but this time in a peaceful way. “Home is the nicest place, isn’t it?”
“Yes,” I say. “It is.”
Ma always says God knows when to send you exactly what you need. But then she’ll say on the same breath that I should just ditch Gertie and get on with my life. I know one thing for sure. Either Ma’s wrong, or else God is.
(excerpts from Where the Sidewalk Ends by Shel Silverstein)